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I feel so sad today. I heard yesterday about one of Jimbo's friend's wife passing. Now I don't know her on a very personal level, just knew of her. I also don't know all the story or anything like that but I do know she died shortly after giving birth to a baby. Hearing about all this took me back.. back to all the pain and even with everything I have been through I can't imagine the pain her husband and kids are feeling. Life is so short and everything can change in just one second. Like I said I didn't reallly know this girl but it just makes me soo very sad for everyone she was close to, especially her kids. Hearing about it just makes me wanna go get my kids and husband and run away..at least for a few days. I find myself sitting here trying to remember all the things I have ever done with my family so that I don't forget. And thinking what in the world I would do if Jimbo ever had to leave me like that?? I think about all the little unimportant things we argue about from time to time and I just hate myself for it. I think about all the times I was "too busy" cleaning or working to play a board game with Gage. And today I just feel like the worse mother and wife in the world. Have I been taking everything for granted? Even after everything I've been through, have I not realized how things can change? I am a total mess today. My mind is going about one million and one miles per hour.