A Look Back...

Looking back on all of this, I can't believe that I survived it. I've been told that I am "tough" several times but I'm just a mommy. I never claim to be the best mommy but I try my best to be a great one. Everything we have gone through was definitely a test of our strength and faith. It has taught us to live each day to the fullest and be thankful for it. I haven't felt any worse pain than having a baby in NICU and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

There are so many people that I want to thank. First of all, God. He has blessed our family with a tough little girl who amazes us every day and a son who is the smartest, sweetest kid I know. Without him we wouldn't be where we are today and I thank him every day for all of my blessings. All of my family and friends. Gage, you helped mommy more than you know. When I was so down you lifted my spirits and made me smile even when I didn't want to. And I love you so much. Mom, you helped so much. Especially by spending the evenings with Gabby so that I could come home to Gage. Grandma and Grandpa, son mis angeles. Gracias por todo. Siempre me ayundan cuando lo necesito y los quiero mucho. Erica, thanks for always checking on Gabby and of course as always being there for me. Even though you didn't know exactly what I was going through you still managed to give me advice and keep my hopes up. You are the best. Hope, thanks for always being around to talk on my way up to or back from the hospital. You have become such a wonderful friend to me in only a short time, and I know that you were always praying for us. To all the nurses and doctors, especially my nurse Carole and Gabby's nurse Glenda. Carole was such a big help and tried her hardest to do everything she could to make us feel better. Glenda was definitely an angel that God sent our way. She fought so hard for Gabby to go home. She even came to check on her when she wasn't her nurse. She cared so much and I am truly grateful for her. Dr Sutter the NICU doctor was great. She really cared about each and every one of the babies. My doctor, Dr Burley, she is wonderful. She was so concerned with how Gabby was doing and checked on us frequently. And last but definitely not least, I want to thank my husband. Jimbo, you were the glue that held me together. You talked sense into me when I was acting crazy, you held me when I was falling apart and you loved me no matter how hard I was to love. I would not have made it through all of this without you. You are my strength. I love you more than you know; I am still completely head over heels in love with you. No one could ever love me or take care of me like you do. I also want to say thanks to everyone who sent thoughts and prayers; you don't know how much they meant to us.

Gabby has been doing so well since all of this. We've had a few appointments with a neurologist. We are weaning her off her meds now and if all goes well we won't have to go back. She still has her apnea monitor but hopefully once we get her off one med we can work on getting her off the other medicine and the monitor. She is doing so well and at only 3 months can already roll from tummy to back! I will keep everyone updated on all of Gabby and Gage's achievements and progress. I also wanted to encourage anyone who is looking to donate to a charity to consider March of Dimes. March of Dimes helps out so many families whose babies are in NICU. And hopefully one day all babies will be born healthy. <3